In each episode of Out of My Mind, one person talks to journalist Adam Dudding about their life, and the view from inside their head. These first-person dispatches from the front lines of mental health are moving, yet also full of moments of surprise, tenderness and humour. There are seven episodes. Two are available now and the following five will be released each Monday.
Trailer: Out of My Mind
Listen1: Angels and Demons
- Egan Bidois
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Warning: Strong language and discussion of suicide. To talk to a counsellor, call or text free to 1737.
2: The paroxetine diaries
- Ashleigh Young
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Warning: Strong language and discussion of suicide. To talk to a counsellor, call or text free to 1737.
3: Crossing the lines
- Monday August 19
3: Crossing the lines
- “Hanna Smith”
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Warning: Strong language and discussion of suicide. To talk to a counsellor, call or text free to 1737. More on post-natal depression here.
4: Fight or flight
- Monday August 26
4: Fight or flight
- Jami-Lee Ross
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Warning: Strong language and discussion of suicide. To talk to a counsellor, call or text free to 1737.
5: Another realm
- Monday September 2
5: Another realm
- Karlo Mila
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Warning: Strong language and discussion of suicide. To talk to a counsellor, call or text free to 1737.
6: Harvey Milk and the dinosaurs
- Monday September 9
6: Harvey Milk and the dinosaurs
- Andy Cawston
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Warning: Discussion of suicide.
7: Barbed wire
- Monday September 16
7: Barbed wire
- Taimi Allan
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Warning: Strong language and discussion of suicide. To talk to a counsellor, call or text free to 1737.
Credits
This podcast was made with support from a Like Minds Like Mine grant from the Mental Health Foundation.
presenter/producer
Adam Dudding
Editorial adviser
Eugene Bingham
Photographers
David White and David Unwin
Interactive designer
Sungmi Kim
Art/animations
Jemma Cheer
Executive producers
Carol Hirschfeld and Keith Lynch
Projects Director
John Hartevelt
Sound Engineer
Alex Chalcoff at Department of Post
Music
Audio Network
where to get help
Lifeline
Depression NZ
Suicide Crisis Helpline
Youthline
Kidsline
The Lowdown
Supporting Families
Even as a child, EGAN BIDOIS sees and hears unusual things, but when the visions become intolerable, his life changes forever.
“HANNA” thinks she’s coping with a second baby, but hormonal swings, life stresses and past trauma push her to the brink of catastrophe.
Senior politician JAMI-LEE ROSS’s breakdown played out in the glare of constant media attention. He walks through his year from hell.
KARLO MILA is overcome by terrifying visions while visiting Tonga. Years later, she starts to question what was really going on as her reality fractured. (More about Karlo’s writing here.)
ANDY CAWSTON decides that abandoning his family to take up arms abroad will solve all his problems. But the answers actually lie much closer to home.
In her 20s, TAIMI ALLAN is told she faces a life of institutionalisation and crippling psychiatric drugs. It takes a long time for her realise that isn’t true. More about Taimi’s NGO, Changing Minds, here.